I just had a thought in the bathroom.
Does that happen to you? Go to the bathroom and have a revelation.
Happens all the time to me. I get little flashes of inspiration in the stranges times and places. Shower is always a good one.
So I had the thought, “This is never going to happen.” Along with an overriding feeling of despair.
This thought is related to my current situation – living as a family of six all in one room.
It’s starting to drive me nuts.
I haven’t had a real home since we packed up and left our rental the end of October 2012. It’s getting to me. I’m losing hope.
And so I had the thought – this is never going to happen.
Or – in other words – this situation I’m in is never going to change. It’s just going to go on and on indefinitely. Until I go absolutely insane and pull all of my hair out.
And then it hit me.
How many times in my life have I had that exact same thought?
Literally. The exact. same. thought.
I began to remember – all at once – instance after instance of times I have felt the exact same way – that whatever it is I was hoping for would never happen.
Find a husband, Get my masters degree, Move to Costa Rica, Have a home, Start a ministry for at-risk children, Own land, ummm… I could go on and on and on and on.
Wow.
It’s like I just don’t learn. I am so hard headed.
What will it take for me to understand?
It WILL happen. We will build and we will move onto this land. And I will not live in this one-bedroom garage forever.
Do you ever get like that?
Do you have those thoughts, too?
That whatever it is, fill-in-the-blank with your hearts desire, will just never happen?
I’ve got to believe that it’s just not true.
That actually, it’s right around the corner. And you just gotta hang on a little bit longer.
And the time might come in the future when you will look back and laugh at yourself, oh you of little faith!
